Thoughts

08/09/23, 10:00 Christmas isn't as exciting as before for her, but it is, certainly, still somewhat  elating . Perhaps it is the feeling of contentment in the air that makes her heart smile. Or, maybe, it is the sight of families gathering together that makes her soul beam. Either way, laying on her bed, watching a movie about Christmas on Christmas Eve, waiting for the night to approach in order to do absolutely nothing, is still exhilarating.  New Year's Eve is even better. She gets to wear a pretty dress, visit her relatives, and spend some quality time with them. She gets to eat delicious food made by her aunt. She gets to hear her cousins' humorous comments and laugh at them, even if some of those comments are about her petite height, and she finds that even in those comments she can feel the warmth of the word "family".   However, she finds that Christmas does not have the same meaning anymore.  Christmas is now, for her, a reminder of how much time has pa...

01/09/23, 10:30 Money is an astute snake. A stumbling rock. A trap. A poison that can contaminate even the purest heart. Money can make people blind. Money can make you worship it and make you devote your life to it. Money is the root of all evil, they say. There was a time when she didn't care at all about money. She saw her mother worrying about it all the time. "She's just too stingy. Money isn't that important. Life isn't just about money", she thought. She promised herself she wouldn't be like her mom, or like everyone else, who seemed to hold this idol dear to their hearts.  She graduated from high school, and she saw this astute snake wrap around her best friend's head. Her friend turned from a carefree girl to a anxious, distressed one, worried about money all the time. She promised herself even more that she wouldn't turn out like that.  But she became the anxious, distressed girl she promised herself she wouldn't be. The future was sc...

25/08/23 9:48 She was just a little girl when her mother and her had to move to another place. Her mother had problems with her marriage, and she didn't want the child to do anything to do with them. Her mother was a strong woman. She was a delicate rose that had to learn how to use her thorns to bear all the harshness of this pitiless world. Alone.  She probably felt alone. It was probably very hard for her, too. But the child never realized that because her mother always seemed so strong. Therefore, when she cried silently, sitting on her bed, the child couldn't fathom why her mother was sad.  She probably had her heart broken, her dreams, shattered, for she had trusted a man who didn't treasure her like he should have. She may have been terrified of the future. She probably wondered if she could make it. Now she had to face the duty of raising her child, alone. She had to work very hard to provide for her education, food, clothes, endure problems with her family, endure ...

20/08/23, 2:35 I don't have enough time There's never time for anything when she's busy. There's never time for family. Even though she knows that family is one of the most precious gifts God has given her, she doesn't spend enough time with her family. "I have to do this. I can't watch a movie with you. I'm sorry, mom", she says. The next day, she says the exact same words. When will she ever have time, then? Even though she is aware of the fact that time with them is precious, that time flies and the time that has passed will never be recovered, she ignores that and decides to live in her own bubble of "I'm sorry, I have to do this. I don't have time." There's never time for friends. She hadn't realized that before, but relationship with friends need to be nurtured and taken care of, just like romantic relationships. Best friend texts. Wait until next morning to reply. Another day passes. How long has it been? Ah, a week...