A reminder of time

08/09/23, 10:00

Christmas isn't as exciting as before for her, but it is, certainly, still somewhat elating.

Perhaps it is the feeling of contentment in the air that makes her heart smile. Or, maybe, it is the sight of families gathering together that makes her soul beam. Either way, laying on her bed, watching a movie about Christmas on Christmas Eve, waiting for the night to approach in order to do absolutely nothing, is still exhilarating. 

New Year's Eve is even better. She gets to wear a pretty dress, visit her relatives, and spend some quality time with them. She gets to eat delicious food made by her aunt. She gets to hear her cousins' humorous comments and laugh at them, even if some of those comments are about her petite height, and she finds that even in those comments she can feel the warmth of the word "family".  

However, she finds that Christmas does not have the same meaning anymore. 

Christmas is now, for her, a reminder of how much time has passed. When she was a kid, she would meet with her friends and spend New Year's Eve together. She would play outside all afternoon, waiting for her mother to come, or, rather, waiting for her mother's gift to come. Now, all there is left to do is to reminisce about those chilly nights.

Nevertheless, she does not really wish to go back in time. She realizes that she is beyond grateful for being able to experience her present, and that even though things will never stay the same, that even though change is scary, it is all right. 

All there is left to do is to enjoy the current New Year's Eve nights, for she knows that in the future, they will change again, and they will be a reminder of how much time has passed one more time.